Somewhere in the world and 'Christmas yet, somewhere in the world, families celebrate with a full belly and smiling faces, somewhere two people who love to hug each other under the mistletoe, somewhere in the Christmas music is sung from friends a little 'happy' between slices of Pandora or other sweets ....
And part of me dreams of being somewhere else, the smell of the pines, the smell of the snow that did not seem to hear when breathing in the lungs, to hear the laughter of children and enjoy hot chocolate and pandoro. .. But soon after opening gifts, and Rick 'went to sleep. He spent all day in bed more 'or less and I I've been on the couch reading a book, I saw a little' of television, I played with the dogs and the day and 'passed as if it were a normal day.
Of course I celebrated the day before with my sister and his family, but I do not have a generic "my" people who want to celebrate with me!
I realized that more and more 'I' becomes a bear, I locked myself in order not to hear more 'empty.
I do not want to make a wrenching post, do not seek solace or comfort. I just needed to vent a little.
It 's easy to feel a bit' more 'only during the holidays, and I'm lucky in the end ... I have a roof over my head, I have a family that loves me, I have adorable puppies that keep me company.
This year has not 'been easy to make me want purchases to prepare the gifts, to decorate the house ...
I think this year many have not even had the chance ' to buy gifts, prepare a meal for the family. How many people have lost their homes this year, the job ....
I wish all of you to find serenity, 'a little' peace and make at least one of their dreams. My for now I've locked in a drawer, not to lose .... but sooner or later that I open the drawer!